My mission is to inspire young women to live as if they knew they were loved, treasured and undeniably priceless. We live in a world that wants us to believe that our value comes from how we look and what we do, but God adores us because of who we are — His.
Like so many, pain + heartache has brought to my knees more than once. At the age of 17, I was date raped. Quickly thereafter, I spiraled into a severe depression and consequently, a suicide attempt. A few years later, I became so physically sick with Crohn’s Disease that I underwent multiple surgeries, ultimately leaving me with a permanent ileostomy – a bag on my stomach. I was only 24.
To say I felt broken is an understatement. Shattered. Damaged. Scattered in pieces…that’s more like it.
How do you build yourself back up when every piece of who you think you are has been shattered? Is there purpose in the pain? Is there beauty in the brokenness? Is there a message within the mess?
From my knees, I discovered that the world can break my heart, it can break my body, but it cannot break my spirit. These scars have become my armor. My story has become my testimony. The brokenness only adds more fuel to the fire from which I’m rising. The weight of the pain is only outdone by God’s capacity to call me loved, pick up the pieces, and make me new, from the broken pieces.
Now that I know who God says that I am, I am safe, overwhelmed with peace, beaming with joy. He makes me brave.
By sharing my story, I hope to inspire others to find the beauty within their own brokenness. We all have something that we’re not proud of, something that we’re afraid will deem us unworthy if we were ever found out. We may not share the same type of adversity, but I do believe that we both have been to the same places in our hearts – loneliness, fear, shame, doubt. It isn’t the adversity that defines us, but how we choose to respond to it.